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[Sep. 27th, 2006|05:34 pm] |
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Ok last comment here. Again my new journal is 617ghostbuster. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|02:36 am] |
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Hey guys. Last post here. I effed up. New journal is 617ghostbuster. I probably won't be adding people because I'm a lazy fuck, but if you add me, I will add you back. Well, if I know you. This journal is going to be different. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2006|12:41 am] |
ive made a new journal.
user name : ghostbuster617
will be friends only. i'm deleting this thing finally.
also, ive been 20 since sunday. what the fuck. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|03:53 pm] |
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I am going to delete this journal within this week and that's going to be it. I feel worse than I have in a long, long time and it makes no sense bitching about it on here since I don't seem to have any friends that read this shit anyway. Not that I blame them. Live journal is this thing where you pretend like people give a fuck what you say, but everyone just wants themselves to be heard. The only problem is that in person when I'm upset I turn inside myself and can't seem to say anything half of the time, which makes me one of them ost frustrating people ever. I may start a photo journal in the future or something, but yeah. Fuck this. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2006|05:26 pm] |
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[Mar. 17th, 2006|02:16 am] |
I got two A-'s and two B+'s on my midterms, yet I still feel like I'm falling.
I just want to sleep all of the time. Only even there, I can't escape the depression that's lurking over my shoulder. John woke me up the other night because I was crying. Crying in my sleep. And I have dreams where I keep trying to get out of bed, but I can't. Sometimes I will even have dreams where I think I've gotten up and gone to class, but in reality, I'm just lying in bed like a vegetable.
Trying to do school work is useless. I have to read half of "Light in August" by William Faulkner for tomorrow. I made an honest attempt to start reading, but my eyes just glazed over the words and my thoughts kept going elsewhere. Despite all of the fucking medication. It only kind of works.
Also, I skipped 3 of my classes this week. Slept through all of them, including a 4:30 pm class. I woke up at 4:40, but still didn't bothering because I hate showing up to class late. I hate any unneccesary attention. Anxiety disorder kicks in at random times.. I'm very peculiar about some things, yet am totally outgoing in regards to others. I couldn't begin to figure it out.
This week I will get a 10-12 page report based on some nuerological processing tests I had to do. The same woman tested me like 5 years ago, so it will be interesting to compare..
Anyway I hope you all are well. Sorry for the downer-y post. I'm still planning on starting a new journal, but I've added it to the list of shit which will probably never get done.
On a more posi-note, I'm really looking forward to my birthday, which is still pretty far away. Not because I like my birthday.. it's one of those anxiety-provoking things, but rather because I am broke, and I need a new 35 mm camera, which I'm sure my parents will get for me. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2006|01:19 pm] |
http://www.youtube.com/?v=XVKK8Mkbhu8
i have such a crush on young bob dylan. i can't help it. except these days he looks more like a rat.
anyway, i just thought this video was funny. i can't make out most of what they are saying, but i love that they seem to be passing around a joint. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|05:18 am] |
So amazing at sleeping.
Also.. I want to get out of this city.
I'm going to ask my parent's either for a new camera for my birthday, or money to go traveling. I'm really torn between the two. I'll probably go with the camera though. But on the other hand, if I take a photo class next year, they may just buy me one.
Ehhhh. I'll worry about it later. My birthday isn't until June anyway.
We finally have the cold of winter, but not enough snow to make snowmen and go sledding. Fucking bullshit.
Oh and.. my computer is being fixed. I spilled soda on it like a moron. Hopefully not everything is deleted. That would suck.. a lot. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|03:10 pm] |
| You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life?s pleasures as much as you can.
?Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!?
More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...
Hedonism | | 100% | Apathy | | 85% | Nihilism | | 70% | Strong Egoism | | 65% | Justice (Fairness) | | 60% | Existentialism | | 55% | Utilitarianism | | 45% | Kantianism | | 30% | Divine Command | | 0% | </td>
What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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[Dec. 6th, 2005|10:25 pm] |
So.. going back and making all of my journal entries friends only. Fucking tedious. I hate it. But yeah, I don't know what I'm going to do. Either all my entries from this point on will be friends-only, or I might just abandon this one and start a new one.
And if you're wondering where all of this is spawning from, my sister found my myspace recently, and well, I'm realizing more and more about how I have to be careful about what I say on the internet in case the wrong person finds it.
Also, I've been feeling more like writing latley, and I always feel censored on this thing, so I'm hoping if I start a new one that is friends-only, I will be able to start writing again. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2005|12:43 am] |
My father is now almost sixty. Sometimes I look at him and realize how old he looks. In my mind, his beard is still a heavy red and his eyes aren't quite so sunken.
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